Happy birthday, old friends.

hari ini , 17 maret 2011 , ada seorang teman lama gue yang ultah . tapi, sayangnya, dia udah gaada di sini lagi. setahun yang lalu, ia telah dipanggil Bapa karena penyakitnya. ia menderita leukimia. gue bisa merasakan dia begitu menderita. tapi mungkin dia ga terlalu kenal gue, karena kita emang beda sekolah. tapi, bagaimanapun juga, gue pernah mengenal dia. dan dia adalah sepupu dari temen gue. untuk itu, anggep aja nama dia adalah "a" karena gue bener2 ga bisa sebutin nama dia disini. ini adalah beberapa pesan dan ucapan gue buat dia:

hai , a! apa kabar lu disana? gue yakin lu bahagia banget. lu udah bebas dari penyakit lu, dan gue yakin lu sangat senang. hmmm. hari ini, gue cuman mau ngucapin : HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. ga kerasa udah setaun. kalo lu lupa sama gue, lu bisa tanya sama temen2 lu yang lain ok. tapi gue masih inget sama lu. jadi gue harus ngucapin. hehehe. gue berharap lu selalu bahagia disana, baik2, dan semoga lu semakin dewasa, karna umur lu skrg ud 16! hehehe. take care :')

i love korea!

hey! my blog! how are you? i think it has been ages when i wrote something on you . now i just wanna tell you..i really love all about korea .i like some actors, a lot of songs and dramas.
it's too incredible! i can't lie! it's really fun! now, i'll mention it one by one. first! i'll start from actors and actress.

ACTORS :
1. Kim Hyun Joong

He's the greatest actor and singer in Seoul. I really really love him so much. He's too handsome, too smart, tall, kind, funny, and has an incredible voice! He's too perfect for me. He had been got a gold medal for mathematic olympiad , started when he was in the elementary school. He was born on 6th June 1986. He has an elder brother. I'm so damn love Kim Hyun Joong too much. I have a lot of songs who's sung by him. He's really my idol. Saranghae!

2. Kim Soo Hyun

He's charming, good-looking, and very young. He's so funny and really handsome. He always smile and it makes me crazy! I love him. He's very great in Dream High Drama. He has a great voice too. it supposed him to be a great singer while young.

3. Park Jung Min

AH! I really love him so much! He's really kind and funny! i love him! he's perfect!

4. Heo Young Saeng

He has a brilliant voice and very good looking. He's very young, and of course, he has a brilliant talent too.

5. Kim Kyu Jong

Kyu Jong Oppa is very young, smart, and good-looking. His song is very great to me.

6. Kim Hyung Jun

aa! He's the baby of SS501. He's the cutest. I like him <3

ahh. too many actors that i love. so i can't tell it all. 6 is enough :)

ACTRESS

1. Suzy

I like her! she's too young! 16 years old. and she could act in dream high drama to be a very great girl. She's too beautiful and very stylish. She's charming and kind. She has a good voice too. ah!

2. Jung So Min

She acted with Hyun Joong Oppa in korean drama : playful kiss. She's great, beautiful, and charming. She's funny.


BAND & SINGERS

1. SS501
2. 2 p.m.
3. Super Junior.
4. SHINee.
5. Rain.
6. IU.
7. FT.Island.
8. CN. Blue.
9. MBLAQ.
10. Infinite.
11. SECRET.
12. JYJ
13. TVXQ.
14. Girls Generation.
15. Miss A.
16. T-ARA.
17. G.NA.
18. BoA.
19. After School.
20. Lee Seung Gi.

~

apakah ini hal yang menakutkan?
hal yang paling aku takutkan?

kenapa di saat yang penting, ada kabar seperti ini?
apakah dia merasa sakit?
atau ada sesuatu yang tidak nyaman?
atau...apakah dia tertekan karena melihat hasil pemeriksaan ini?

aku takut.
takut sekali.
takut sekali kehilangan dia.

aku, sungguh sangat mencintai, siapa yang telah menjagaku dari aku bayi.
dari aku bayi, hingga sekarang, aku telah berumur 15 tahun.
15 tahun lamanya, aku di bawah pengawasannya.
15 tahun lamanya, aku berada di sampingnya.
15 tahun lamanya, dia selalu ada untuk aku.

apakah semua ini karena aku?
karena aku?adikku?atau sesuatu yang selalu membuat dia terganggu dan terbebani?
atau karena keturunan?
atau karena masalah di kantornya?

aku sungguh tak tahu.
bahkan, sebagai anak sulung........
aku sungguh tak tahu dan tak mengerti apa-apa.
dan, seperti yang dikatakannya, aku memang tidak bisa apa-apa.
dan aku merasa, aku hanya sebuah batu,
sebuah batu yang membuatnya terbebani.
sebuah batu yang membuatnya terluka dan tersakiti.

aku menyayangi dia.
aku mencintai dia.
aku menghormati dia.
aku menghargai dia.

tapi...
sungguh maaf.
aku benar-benar selalu bersikap dingin.
tidak baik. atau apapun seakan-akan egoku lebih besar daripada keegoisan.

kadang..
aku benci diriku.
kadang.
aku merasa, diriku ini sangat tidak berarti.
sebab, aku takut, kalau aku adalah penyebab dia terluka.
penyebab hasil pemeriksaan itu yang menyakitkan.

sekarang..
apa yang dapat aku lakukan?
aku hanya bisa berdoa.
aku hanya bisa melakukan apa yang aku bisa.
aku punya beberapa talenta.
meskipun tidak hebat,
meskipun tidak banyak,
meskipun tidak bisa apa-apa,
tapi.......
aku sungguh menjanjikan kepadanya
kalau aku boleh memberikan yang terbaik untuk dia.

maaf.
di hari-hari yang terlewati ini..
aku sungguh buruk bukan?
aku sungguh menyusahkan bukan?
aku sungguh membebani dan menyakiti bukan?
aku sungguh egois bukan?
aku sungguh dingin bukan?
aku sungguh payah bukan?
dan aku sungguh bodoh bukan?

harusnya..
harusnyaa..
aku bisa jadi yang terbaik buat dia.
bisa menjadi terang buat dia.
bisa membawa keceriaan yang menyenangkan hatinya.
bisa membantu dia.
bisa mengerti dia.

aku akan mencoba.
mencoba untuk itu semua.
sebab,
aku tak akan menyia-nyiakan waktu ini.
waktu yang semakin lama semakin sempit.
tolong jangan pernah pisahkan aku dari semuanya.
karena aku benci perpisahan.
aku ingin kebahagiaan.
kedamaian.
dan segalanya yang penuh cinta kasih.

walau kadang.
aku ini sungguh bodoh.
aku ini sungguh ego.
tapi.
yang aku bisa,
hanyalah percaya pada diriku.
kalau aku bisa.

tolong jaga kesehatan ya.
aku sangat ingin menjaganya.
tolong lindungi dia.
dari apapun.
dan jangan pernah pisahkan aku darinya.
sebab.
aku sungguh-sungguh sangat mencintainya,
melebihi nyawaku sendiri,
melebihi kehidupanku sendiri.

the 1st chapter of shs is almost done :D

yeah...
im really waiting for holiday.
im going to Singapore and Malaysia, soon ;)
i know, that will be a very great trip..

umm..
now..
im still having some final test.
they are sociology, indo languange, math, chem, economy, computer, biology, and mandarin..
i've learnt soc and indo..
btw, i wanna tell smthing..
2 days ago.. Friday, 3rd Dec '10..
i was late to go to ipeka school.
uh! it was really2 annoying.
actually, i had been woking up at 5.20 and learnt the religion materials.
but... i went school at 6.15
i dunno, that could be a traffic jam in front of ipeka
it was raining
and floods .
so, i thought, that i couldn't walk to school because of floods.
but....
finally, i walked too -.-
reached the school with the wet shoes, wet hair.
uhhh.
it was so cool.
and after that, i must have done the religion test. T___T
i did it quickly, because i was scared that i just had a less time to do it.

really.
i thought.......
if i go to school earlier, i'll be at school punctual and won't be wet like that.
and..
of course, i will more concentrate than i did it when i was wet .
so..
it was a damn day.
i hate it.
but..
God helped me.
He....
he has a plan that i'll be done punctual.
so i was so proud of Him
really thanked
many thanks.

shs:(

hello..new school, everyone..
i think this is so bad..
i actually hate to be in shs.
i've grown older..
i really can't forget my memories in jhs .
and now?
what can i do in the new school?
i dont recognize anyone.
i hate to be in my new class.
there's always many person, like a,e,f,b,d,y,c,m,and the others who really hate me .
and i dont understand, what's my mistake?
talk to them? ...never.
make a noise? never.
smater than ? maybe..this' the problem i think.
if they don't envy to me, so, what's the problem?
they talk about me all the time.
in class, or the other.
do you know how sad i am when i step on the shs?
i dont like it.really.
why do they always destroy my days?
why do they always disturb me with the bad talks or anything?
im really tired. tired of everything.
at school, i have a lot of test, assignments, group works and anything.
i can't hang out everyweek , though.
my life is changed...
and i hate this.
but what can i do?
i just know, God always be in my side, and helps me all the time.
i just know, i just believe Him all the time.
no one can be believed.
they are such an idiot and a liar.
they are really really a good person.
but why do they have a really bad behavior?
they are rich, aren't they?
please.
stop talking .
just shut your mouth.
and please.
i always pray for all of you.
so that all of you can survive and realize that you're such an idiot to do this all.
please....

my june holiday in surabaya

i love this town ! that's the sentences that i said at the last time i was there. .

okay, now, i'd like to tell my 5 days experience when i was there :]

at the first time, we tidied up our clothes and put them into the suitcases. after that, we went to soekarno-hatta international airport by taxi. then, we checked in and waited for the boarding. i and my family were eating smthing in the restaurant while waiting . and then, the time has done, and we went to the aeroplane immediately. hehe. and we were in the plane. i sat next to my siblings near the plane's window, because i liked to see the view when the plane flied. the plane needed 1 hour and 10 minutes to get in surabaya. and, the plane took off and was in the sky :D

1 hour and 10 minutes .
after that, we landed in juanda international airport in surabaya! it was a nice airport,too. i think an airport was same as usual hehe:p then, we took our suitcases in the baggage and got out from that airport. and, we were picked up by my dad's friend. his name is Andy. and the JCI called him uncle. we felt the surabaya town was more hot than jakarta. but, i dunno, i thought that was same and okay;p . then, we arrived in java paragon hotel. it was a really nice hotel. and then we went to the room and were picked up again by uncle to the restaurant, because we didn't have lunch.

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